Prisoner

To put faith in me

I am the prisoner

and I am the gaurd.

I have had a hard time

pushing away all noises.

I told myself

I would be handcuffed

in stones

to protect myself

from the obligations.

I befriended my obnoxity

and embraced every inch of curtain

to cover my colours in pale purple.

I kept running.

I kept running till I knew

I was far enough

to ever get caught.

But I couldn't escape.

I couldn't hide.

Because it was right inside of me.

It was a part of me.

Which I kept pushing down

expecting it would never revolt.

But I am lost.

I am caged

and I can't help but keep

breathing dead breathes

to justify my crimes.

I am a murderer.

I have murdered my feelings,

my emotions.

And to put faith in me

I am the prisoner

and I am the gaurd.